Kicking Things Off This January 2020
Hello!
I just finished posting several posts on my social media looking back at the past decade.
In 2009, I graduated high school and started earning by Bachelor’s degree in theatre performance. I wasn’t happy. I had wanted to go to school out of town, but financially found that wasn’t an option. I had also ended my first serious relationship in the summer between high school and university because I was tired of being who he wanted me to be (as opposed to being loved for me).
At the time, I didn’t realize how manipulative he was being until orientation. My future classmates didn’t know me in high school so I was able to be my true self that I had been hiding for the past two years and they accepted me and liked me for me. I thank them for opening my eyes although they didn’t realize that that’s what they were doing. Four years later I graduated with my bachelor’s degree. I didn’t really have a plan other than acting. I traveled to different unified auditions in an effort to find employment at a summer stock theater or maybe go to grad school even though I didn’t truly want to at that point.
Ten years later I’m living in New York City, still auditioning, still trying to figure things out, and occasionally getting cast in the process. Unfortunately in this business you hear more no’s than yes’s. I’m currently stuck on an acting level and I’m ready to level up, but can’t figure out how.
The photos above are my before pictures. I have gained some weight since moving to New York, and I’m looking to make a positive change to my body and my mind.
I think the weight gain started slightly before my move to New York. I went from standing for 4-6 hours at a time at my retail job to sitting for eight hours straight, five days a week at my brief desk job. It wasn’t a huge amount of weight gained, but I did notice it and in doing research, found many studies on the debilitating effects of being sedentary for so long. That’s not surprising and unfortunately I didn’t have too many options for fighting the sedentary effects in the tiny office space I shared with my boss. I was working out and still eating relatively healthy, but sitting all day took a quick toll. It didn’t help that my commute was an hour each way and my hometown is strictly driving. Once my boss was gone and I was at no risk of disturbing him, I would move and stretch as often as I could as recommended by said studies.
Two years later, I’m moving a lot more since New York requires a lot of walking and while I do sit at a desk at work, I do have built in moments where I stand up and move around as required by my job. I have steadfastly been gaining weight since moving here though, I think that mainly has to do with my diet. My husband and I love junk food and it’s easier for me to give it up than it is for him. It’s also just easier to order out when we both get off late.
It’s the start of a new decade. My self esteem has been declining steadily. I don’t exactly know why, but I’m tired of feeling this way. I’m looking to change my opinion of myself and the start of the year and the decade is the perfect time to do it.
I’m not necessarily looking to lose weight. I want to make my body stronger and feed it things that taste good now and also feel good inside me in the long run, though I will definitely continue to eat junk food... just in moderation.
I guess I’ll also start a fitness YouTube channel. My brother suggested I start one, but I don’t feel qualified to have one and I’m still not sure what to include in it.
If you have any suggestions as to what type of videos I should upload, let me know!
Alright. That’s all for now folks.
Enjoy 2020. I’m going to watch my favorite classic film Casablanca at the IFC later. I’m excited! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Lluvia
I just finished posting several posts on my social media looking back at the past decade.
In 2009, I graduated high school and started earning by Bachelor’s degree in theatre performance. I wasn’t happy. I had wanted to go to school out of town, but financially found that wasn’t an option. I had also ended my first serious relationship in the summer between high school and university because I was tired of being who he wanted me to be (as opposed to being loved for me).
At the time, I didn’t realize how manipulative he was being until orientation. My future classmates didn’t know me in high school so I was able to be my true self that I had been hiding for the past two years and they accepted me and liked me for me. I thank them for opening my eyes although they didn’t realize that that’s what they were doing. Four years later I graduated with my bachelor’s degree. I didn’t really have a plan other than acting. I traveled to different unified auditions in an effort to find employment at a summer stock theater or maybe go to grad school even though I didn’t truly want to at that point.
Ten years later I’m living in New York City, still auditioning, still trying to figure things out, and occasionally getting cast in the process. Unfortunately in this business you hear more no’s than yes’s. I’m currently stuck on an acting level and I’m ready to level up, but can’t figure out how.
The photos above are my before pictures. I have gained some weight since moving to New York, and I’m looking to make a positive change to my body and my mind.
I think the weight gain started slightly before my move to New York. I went from standing for 4-6 hours at a time at my retail job to sitting for eight hours straight, five days a week at my brief desk job. It wasn’t a huge amount of weight gained, but I did notice it and in doing research, found many studies on the debilitating effects of being sedentary for so long. That’s not surprising and unfortunately I didn’t have too many options for fighting the sedentary effects in the tiny office space I shared with my boss. I was working out and still eating relatively healthy, but sitting all day took a quick toll. It didn’t help that my commute was an hour each way and my hometown is strictly driving. Once my boss was gone and I was at no risk of disturbing him, I would move and stretch as often as I could as recommended by said studies.
Two years later, I’m moving a lot more since New York requires a lot of walking and while I do sit at a desk at work, I do have built in moments where I stand up and move around as required by my job. I have steadfastly been gaining weight since moving here though, I think that mainly has to do with my diet. My husband and I love junk food and it’s easier for me to give it up than it is for him. It’s also just easier to order out when we both get off late.
It’s the start of a new decade. My self esteem has been declining steadily. I don’t exactly know why, but I’m tired of feeling this way. I’m looking to change my opinion of myself and the start of the year and the decade is the perfect time to do it.
I’m not necessarily looking to lose weight. I want to make my body stronger and feed it things that taste good now and also feel good inside me in the long run, though I will definitely continue to eat junk food... just in moderation.
I’m starting off my doing a 28 day reset in which I’m giving up gluten, dairy, sugary drinks and processed food. After the 28 days, I’m going to incorporate gluten and dairy slowly just to see if I have any intolerance to them and the processed food at that point will be in moderation.
I’ve done this before, but I’m looking to actually do it. My problem is that as soon as the resets or food challenges are over, I start eating what I want in big amounts again completely defeating the purpose.
I’ll also be working out! Finding what kind of workouts I genuinely like doing has been quite the journey. I loved doing POP Pilates and that truly ignited my love for working out, but now I’m doing different workouts that keep me on my toes. I love feeling sore so when I find something that makes me sore the next day, I get so happy 😀.
I will however be doing a 2020 POP Pilates challenge. The challenge goes from today until January 20 and it consists of 20 reps of an ab move and 20 reps that works a different part of the body. The goal is to do the challenge on top of my daily workout, but I already know that some days I’ll only be able fit in the challenge.
I guess I’ll also start a fitness YouTube channel. My brother suggested I start one, but I don’t feel qualified to have one and I’m still not sure what to include in it.
If you have any suggestions as to what type of videos I should upload, let me know!
Alright. That’s all for now folks.
Enjoy 2020. I’m going to watch my favorite classic film Casablanca at the IFC later. I’m excited! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Lluvia
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